...five years on...... and where i am.... no where... juz da same old fat loser... hoping and hoping... and that's all i ever do.. hope... and not exactly doing anything about it...
how i hated this day...
how i hate myself more...
its just a sinking feeling knowing that u could have done much more but just cant... how things would have been different IF.... and dat IF word comes into play..... IF this IF that... a siily excuse for a failure which i dug myself into...
oh and the way things are going on... it'll seem that the cycle will most likely repeats itself...
WHY? i used to ask myself that qns... WHY?
only to realize how much of a fool i was in the past... and the worse thing is that i nvr change... forever making the same mistakes as i did in the past... only to laugh at myself again and again.. humour in tragedy it seems...
i dont know why but it seems the skies are grey most of da time.. or maybe its just me... a dull and grey person...
its just me i guess... da same old fat guy who hates himself...
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wow this was posted almost 2 years ago... well even if you never read this, i want to say that you should know that I used to feel almost just like you and that I realized that I'm actually still lucky. I'm not starving or homeless, in danger, or without internet. There's alot more to be grateful for too like a happy family. Live your life, you never know today might be your last day! It's never too late, and hope is always a good thing thing :)
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