Thursday, November 27, 2008

... and the cycle repeats itself ...

...five years on...... and where i am.... no where... juz da same old fat loser... hoping and hoping... and that's all i ever do.. hope... and not exactly doing anything about it...

how i hated this day...

how i hate myself more...

its just a sinking feeling knowing that u could have done much more but just cant... how things would have been different IF.... and dat IF word comes into play..... IF this IF that... a siily excuse for a failure which i dug myself into...

oh and the way things are going on... it'll seem that the cycle will most likely repeats itself...

WHY? i used to ask myself that qns... WHY?

only to realize how much of a fool i was in the past... and the worse thing is that i nvr change... forever making the same mistakes as i did in the past... only to laugh at myself again and again.. humour in tragedy it seems...

i dont know why but it seems the skies are grey most of da time.. or maybe its just me... a dull and grey person...

its just me i guess... da same old fat guy who hates himself...